Oh Fall on Your Knees! Homily for the Feast of St. Thomas the Apostle

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus. We are gathered here today to pay homage to your patron St. Thomas the Apostle and I would like to use this opportunity to reflect on what San Tomé, in his famous interaction with the Risen Lord, can teach us about worship and the liturgy.

As many of you would know, in the Gospel according to St. John we are told that Our Lord, after He was resurrected, appeared to the disciples, but Tomé was not among them. When this glorious encounter was recounted to him by the disciples, Thomas famously declared:

Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe. (Jn 20: 25)

A week later, Our Lord appeared to the disciples one more time, this time with St. Thomas present, and Our Lord said to him:

Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe. (Jn 20: 27)

St. Thomas is recorded as having responded:

My Lord and my God! (Jn 20: 28)

In other words, he fell silent! And I have no doubt that St Thomas would have knelt when silencing himself with these words of worship, because kneeling is the most perfect way of demonstrating that one is in the presence of the sacred.

My dear brothers and sisters, this episode has so much to teach us about the act of worship and the liturgy. To begin with, we must remember that Our Lord does not immediately chastise Thomas for his refusal to believe in the resurrection. This is because Our Lord appreciates that the minds we so pride ourselves on, are in fact feeble, and require physical aids to help our belief.

It is for this, among others, reason, that Our Lord instituted the sacraments, and above all the Eucharist. So that we might have physical aids to help aid our faith, and to direct our worship.

And yet, for some years now, our worship – the liturgy – has become more about the cognitive, about words. We have accretions to the liturgy that distract, rather than aid the process of worship. We have introductions to the Mass, introductions to the readings, directions on when to stand, what to think, there is talk, talk, talk! That there is excessive talk at Mass is bad enough, but there is this babbling even at the adoration of the Blessed Sacrament, when in fact we should be silent, and kneeling in adoration, before His presence.

For generations the Church has recognized this truth, that it is not only the head that has to be engaged in worship, but the entire body; which is why we stand, we genuflect, we kneel. We clasp our hands before us, we cross ourselves. And yet, more recently, amidst all the chatter that we have introduced, the body has stopped being fully exercised in the act of worship. And because we only exercise our minds and not our bodies, we fail to internalize the great truths of our faith, that Jesus, Our Lord, is truly present in the Eucharist.

It was after St. Thomas acknowledged his belief that Our Lord, in his gentle manner, chided the apostle:

Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe. (Jn 20:29)

When he says these words, dear brothers and sisters, Our Lord is referring to all of us – who have not seen Him in the flesh but 'only' veiled under the signs of bread and wine; and experience his salvific touch 'only' through the sacraments. As I have already indicated, this belief is best demonstrated, and reiterated, not through some mental consent, but through an embodied response, we fall down on our knees, we genuflect.

Reflecting on this episode in the life of the Lord, and that of His church, I was reminded of the episode (John 9) where Our Lord heals the man who was born blind. After healing him, Our Lord returned and asked him if he believed in the Son of Man. The formerly blind man responded that he wished to see him so that he could believe in Him. Our Lord responds:

“You have seen him, and the one speaking with you is he.” (Jn 9: 37)

The blind man, the Gospel reports:

... said, “Lord, I believe.” And he worshiped him. (Jn 9: 38)

Many translations of this verse indicate that this assertion of belief, the act of worship, involved kneeling and prostration. He believed, and knelt down before the Lord.

My dear brothers and sisters, on this day when we celebrate the memory of St. Thomas the Apostle, let us imitate his practice, esteem the physical presence of Our Lord among us and esteem the act of kneeling. Let us genuflect whenever we pass before the Blessed Sacrament. Let us kneel when we await the reception of Our Lord in communion; and kneel in silence after we have received Him. Let us return to privilege the silences of the Mass and remember that it is often in these silences that Our Lord speaks to us.

May Our Lord bless you all, and may your patron St. Thomas intercede for you all. San Tomé, rogai por nós.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

(A version of this homily was first preached to the faithful at the chapel of San Tomé, Pangim on 1 Feb 2026. For the Sunday homily faithful to the lectionary, click here.)

(Image reference: St Thomas doubts Christ, Joseph E. Nuttgens, 1944, St Teresa’s church, Beaconsfield, UK.)

The Doors of Holiness: Homily for the Fourth Sunday in Ordinary Time

Open to me the gates of righteousness,
    that I may enter through them
    and give thanks to the Lord.

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ, these lyrics from Psalm 118: 19 are not prescribed for today, and yet, these were the words that suggested themselves as I contemplated the lectionary for this fourth Sunday in Ordinary time.  The formulation that suggested itself to me, however, was somewhat different:

              Open to me the gates of holiness, that I might enter and give thanks.

As you will have noticed, the shift is from righteousness to holiness. My head, or perhaps the Spirit, was suggesting to me that what the scripture intends to communicate is that righteousness is the basis of holiness.

This is not a bad way to approach holiness, since it steers us away from the pietism that has come to dominate so much of contemporary Christian – not just Catholic – life. Whether we are piously veiling, receiving communion on our knees, or are regular praise and worship concertgoers coming away with a religious high, there is a dangerous tendency to consider piety and devotion sufficient to keep us on the path of holiness. And while piety is important – I especially believe that Eucharistic piety is very important to growing in holiness; and that the proper reception of communion is fundamental – it is not sufficient. A growth in righteousness is fundamental to the growth in holiness.

And what is righteousness? Guided by this Sunday’s lectionary, I would like to define it as being just, justice being understood as giving to others what is their due (ius). These others include not just those around us, but also God. To be just, then is to give what is due, both to those among us, and also, firstly to God – which is praise, thanksgiving and proper worship.

Let us turn now to the words of the first reading:

Seek the LORD, all you humble of the earth,
who have observed his law;
seek justice, seek humility;
perhaps you may be sheltered
on the day of the LORD's anger.

Who are these, “humble of the earth” that the prophet Zephaniah refers to? They are those who, baptized in Christ, become a part of the Church, His mystical body. If one goes through the list of the beatitudes, that is our Gospel reading for today, we realise that the beatitudes are in fact descriptors of Christ, his saints, and the marks of the true Christian, i.e. those “who observe his law”.

seek justice, seek humility

My dear brothers and sisters, these are the two virtues we need to assiduously seek in our times, whether we live in Goa, or outside. This search is critical because all around us the structures that were built through Christian ethics are now collapsing, and causing much sorrow and loss, and not just to Christians. As the Urdu poet Rahat Indori has so succinctly observed:

Lagegi aag to aayenge ghar kai zad me. Yahan pe sirf humara makan thodi hai.

Many houses will be engulfed in an inferno. It is not as if mine is the only house here.

The pursuit of justice and humility must begin in our daily lives, and in simple ways. Look at the ways in which we drive! I speak for myself, and the terror I experience, when on the highway, vehicles driving at twice the 80 kmph speed limit surge from behind me, and then overtaking from the left, transgress into the bike lane, zip past me and cross over into the lane to my right. I grit my teeth as traffic jams are compounded by those who zip past existing files of cars, creating third and fourth lines. I remind myself in both cases that this happens because the state that ought to enforce discipline, and justice, has abandoned its role. It does not even know what justice is. And yet, I cannot be the enforcer of justice in this mess – I need to have the humility to recognize this. All I can do, for now, is to make sure that I do not join these unjust. For these men are most certainly unjust, given they create potential death traps, and deprive rule-abiding people of their due even when not killing them.

And why is it that we seek humility and justice? The last line from Zephaniah is very clear. So that:

you may be sheltered
on the day of the LORD's anger.

It will be on the dread day of judgement that the meek and humble will inherit the kingdom of heaven, those who mourn will find comfort, that those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be satisfied when they see the smug violators of every rule come to divine justice, burning eternally in the fires of hell. On this blessed day of judgement, those who have shown mercy through their attempts at justice, and humility, will be shown mercy. Those who regularly clean their hearts through the sacrament of confession will be admitted into His presence and see the face of God. Those who have struggled to make peace will be acknowledged by the Son and welcomed by the Father into the Kingdom of heaven where they will live eternally in contemplation and adoration of the divine face.

Rejoice and be glad,
for [on that day] your reward will be great in heaven.

It is for this day of judgement that we Christians walk the path of holiness. For we know that life extends beyond this material world, and the impious perpetrators of injustice in this world will repent at leisure.

May Our Lord give us the grace to grow in holiness, for as psalm 118: 20 teaches us:

This is the gate of the Lord;
    the righteous shall enter through it.

(A version of this homily was first preached to the faithful at the Cathedral parish of St. Catherine of Alexandria on 31 Jan 2026.)

(Image reference: Bishop Mark Eckman at the doors of St. Paul Cathedral Pittsburgh, Louis B. Ruediger, 2025, via TribLive.)

Lux in Tenebris: Homily for the Third Sunday in Ordinary Time

He withdrew to Galilee.

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ,

Last week I suggested to you that holiness is about finding in our hearts the capacity to delight in fulfilling the law of Our Lord and His Church. In other words, holiness is about delight!

As I preached about delight and holiness, I could not, like many of you surely, but help think of Stª Teresa da Avila, the sixteenth century Spanish mystic who has left us great resources with which to understand the progress of the spiritual life.

Delights, form part of the vocabulary of Stª Teresa’s description of the spiritual life. According to Stª Teresa, spiritual delights are movements of God’s grace. These delights come to those who seek Him in His time and His plan. Spiritual delights bring a peace and stillness to the soul that fulfills and expands our hearts.  They can even come in the busiest and noisiest of circumstances.  For a moment, even as we might be busy about other things and thoughts, we are brought to a different level of awareness. And these spiritual delights are not felt purely at the level of the spirit, but in fact, are experienced viscerally as well.

But, as satisfying as they may be, Teresa does not recommend that we remain with this experience of delights. She instead asks us to persevere for more. In this path of spiritual progress, we encounter what St. John of the Cross, another Carmelite, and a collaborator of Stª Teresa, has famously presented as being the dark night of the soul. These are the moments when it appears that God has withdrawn from us. He appears to not be present, there is no sign of either consolation, or delights. And yet, Teresa maintains, we must persevere in our love of Him, and our spiritual exercises, go about our ordinary life, avoid offending God, and practice loving others.

When the time is right, we are told, God will reveal how great a light the “dark night” really was – like staring at the sun, so bright, that we can only see darkness. In this context, the words from the first reading today can be read somewhat differently from the usual:

Anguish has taken wing, dispelled is darkness:
for there is no gloom where but now there was distress.
The people who walked in darkness
have seen a great light;
upon those who dwelt in the land of gloom
a light has shone.
You have brought them abundant joy
and great rejoicing,
as they rejoice before you as at the harvest,
as people make merry when dividing spoils.

The anonymous Christian author of the incomplete work on Mathew draws on common sense to point out that the recollection of past troubles not only does not harm us but gives even greater delight. As long as our troubles are present, they seem to be oppressive, but when they are a thing of the past, the memory of them, he says, is a cause for our delight.

We must take these words to heart my dear brothers and sisters for those times when we believe that Our Lord has withdrawn His favour and His face from us. We know (intellectually) that He never in fact does so. In the light of the teaching of Stª Teresa, we know that He is preparing us for greater things, causing our faith to increase, primarily because at this point we progress on faith alone since our regular prayers seem to be of no use. When the trial is over, however, we will see how this experience opened our hearts to a greater, and different, experience of prayer.

As the first reading today teaches us:

First the Lord degraded …
but in the end he has glorified

All of these, we must bear in mind, is because like He called the first disciples, He has called us. He has called us by name, and He has taken us in His hand. He will not abandon us, but rather, is on the journey with us, so that He may cure us and take us to live with Him for all eternity. As the acclamation of the Gospel teaches us today:

Jesus proclaimed the Gospel of the kingdom
and cured every disease among the people.

The path of the Christian is necessarily littered with trial and tribulation, because this is the way of the Cross. It is the only way to participate in the salvific action of Christ. When we suffer, we suffer with Christ, so that we may share in His glory, and, as St. Paul tells us today;

so that the cross of Christ might not be emptied of its meaning.

Our Lord suffered the experience of abandonment on the Cross, but trusted in His father and through this trust entered into the glory of the resurrection. Similarly, it is when it appears that Our Lord withdraws from us that we are being taught the meaning of the Cross. Let us pray, therefore, for the grace to persevere when we believe that He has withdrawn His grace from us and know that we walk not in darkness, but in light.

(A version of this homily was first preached to the faithful at the Cathedral parish of St. Catherine of Alexandria on 24 Jan 2026.)

(Image reference: Christ walking on the waters, Virgilio Mattoni, late 19^th cent., Private Collection.)